CAPTURING HOPE: Second Edition is the unforgettable true story of how one woman turned the very thing trying to kill her into the force that saved her life.
When American doctors told BJ Rae there was nothing more they could do for her Complex Regional Pain Syndrome-known as "the suicide disease"-she refused to surrender to a future defined by agony, pills, and hopelessness. Bedridden and buried in medical debt, she made a radical choice: fight a system built to let her suffer.
Her search for healing took her across the world to Italy for a treatment the U.S. dismissed without trials. What happened next was astonishing-reduced inflammation, restored mobility, and a life-changing realization that the processed American diet had been fueling her illness, while clean, whole European foods helped her recover.
In this expanded Second Edition, BJ also exposes the darker reality faced by the chronically ill: predators who target the vulnerable. She writes with raw honesty about being sexually assaulted by a neighbor during her illness, revealing how exploitation often hides in plain sight. Her story shows how childhood trauma and lifelong hypervigilance-once sources of pain-became the instincts that ultimately kept her alive.
But Capturing Hope is bigger than one disease or one journey. It is a lifeline for anyone being attacked by life-whether through chronic illness, pain, addiction, trauma, abuse, financial collapse, or the invisible battles that threaten to break us. BJ's transformation proves that even when life hits from all directions, healing is still possible.
Fierce, unfiltered, and deeply empowering, Capturing Hope: Second Edition reveals what recovery truly requires, what the medical system won't tell you, and how resilience is forged in the darkest places. This book is for every reader who feels overwhelmed, abandoned, or betrayed by life-and still hopes for a way forward.